Through these eyes I've seen love and I've seen hate I've seen the violence and the tears Through these eyes, I've got my schooling on the streets I've seen the things that you don't wanna see Through these eyes I've seen the shape of things to come And I've watched them all fall apart! Through these eyes, I've seen the broken homes they cry I've seen the poor man's face, as he stands in line And though my heart has made me weary On a road less traveled on Through the heart it hurts so dearly And the pain it lingers on Through these eyes I've looked the Devil in the face And I've seen God's holy grace Through these eyes, I've tried to walk the straightest line I found myself again, but nearly lost my mind And though my heart has made me weary On a road less traveled on Though the heart it hurts so dearly And the pain it lingers on.... For some reason, that song seems to fit.... So I took off without a second look back at Lothien.... that's when I stumbled across the Realm of Shadows….full of confusion and hatred….for the world that I lived in and the father who brought me into the life I know now…..whom I killed for his actions….which he chose for a reason I still don't know….maybe to escape the life he had….find a better one…or take out the blind fear and rage I now know so well…sins of the father I guess I was no closer to findin out anything about myself than I was before I came to Lothien....but eventually my anger died down, collected itself into an understanding of sorts….or burned away cause I was able to just accept it all even if I was still lost to the reason….either way I let most of it go somehow….course there's still some left…..pain is life's way of lettin us know we're still alive, right? Maybe it's the beast in me that's brought out my "humanity"…..or I've just grown up enough in the past years to be able to sit back and think for a minute before jumpin into things teeth and talons first….but I'm still young and learnin….always will be cause Hell knows I've tried to destroy myself countless times an this body still won't quit In the Realm I met a whole new breed of people...... I changed my name to let go of the past.... from here on out I was called Wolfaris.... it fit, I didn't complain. I fell into company of those within House Calacirian.... and just two months later became their Guardian Several months later I found out why Vaestra had given me the ultimatum...... I was told I had a two month old baby boy, and that she was dying. I took care of Joey for a while, until he was old enough to be on his own. I still see him every once in a while...... he's jus as headstrong as I ever was. And again..... I loved. Her name was Ever...... Chimney Sweep of the Gods. What we shared can never be equaled, it went beyond anything I could even begin to describe. I love with all my heart.... and again I lost. Again it was my fault...... Life went on as normal for a while...... then I became good friends with Lessa, through her met her husband to be Andras Giovanni...... within time we became family...... Wolfenkynde, Healer and Giovanni vampire..... quite an odd site by any standards..... soon, while on a business trip back to Italy, Andras came across a ghostcity, which he took on as his pet project..... and built the City of ShadowDrift..... my future home. song by Social Distortion in 1996, portrait drawn by my good friend DarkStalker, 1999
Through these eyes I've seen love and I've seen hate I've seen the violence and the tears Through these eyes, I've got my schooling on the streets I've seen the things that you don't wanna see Through these eyes I've seen the shape of things to come And I've watched them all fall apart! Through these eyes, I've seen the broken homes they cry I've seen the poor man's face, as he stands in line And though my heart has made me weary On a road less traveled on Through the heart it hurts so dearly And the pain it lingers on Through these eyes I've looked the Devil in the face And I've seen God's holy grace Through these eyes, I've tried to walk the straightest line I found myself again, but nearly lost my mind And though my heart has made me weary On a road less traveled on Though the heart it hurts so dearly And the pain it lingers on....
For some reason, that song seems to fit....
So I took off without a second look back at Lothien.... that's when I stumbled across the Realm of Shadows….full of confusion and hatred….for the world that I lived in and the father who brought me into the life I know now…..whom I killed for his actions….which he chose for a reason I still don't know….maybe to escape the life he had….find a better one…or take out the blind fear and rage I now know so well…sins of the father I guess
I was no closer to findin out anything about myself than I was before I came to Lothien....but eventually my anger died down, collected itself into an understanding of sorts….or burned away cause I was able to just accept it all even if I was still lost to the reason….either way I let most of it go somehow….course there's still some left…..pain is life's way of lettin us know we're still alive, right? Maybe it's the beast in me that's brought out my "humanity"…..or I've just grown up enough in the past years to be able to sit back and think for a minute before jumpin into things teeth and talons first….but I'm still young and learnin….always will be cause Hell knows I've tried to destroy myself countless times an this body still won't quit
In the Realm I met a whole new breed of people...... I changed my name to let go of the past.... from here on out I was called Wolfaris.... it fit, I didn't complain.
I fell into company of those within House Calacirian.... and just two months later became their Guardian
Several months later I found out why Vaestra had given me the ultimatum...... I was told I had a two month old baby boy, and that she was dying. I took care of Joey for a while, until he was old enough to be on his own. I still see him every once in a while...... he's jus as headstrong as I ever was.
And again..... I loved. Her name was Ever...... Chimney Sweep of the Gods. What we shared can never be equaled, it went beyond anything I could even begin to describe.
I love with all my heart.... and again I lost. Again it was my fault...... Life went on as normal for a while...... then I became good friends with Lessa, through her met her husband to be Andras Giovanni...... within time we became family...... Wolfenkynde, Healer and Giovanni vampire..... quite an odd site by any standards..... soon, while on a business trip back to Italy, Andras came across a ghostcity, which he took on as his pet project..... and built the City of ShadowDrift..... my future home. song by Social Distortion in 1996, portrait drawn by my good friend DarkStalker, 1999
